There are many number of things that go on in my head/life on a daily basis that I neither understand or have any control over. The external things I try very hard, as directed by the serenity prayer, to find the serenity, courage and wisdom to cope with them. The internal things are a little more difficult because they can be very sudden to come on, very strange and very unexpected. Thus it is that I can go from having a not bad day to wanting to scream into people's faces and rip off heads in a matter of seconds. The problem is I have a habit of taking it out on whoever is around me at the time, which too often is my 9 year old son. I try so hard not to shout or get aggressive when I'm with him but there are times when I don't manage it. I always apologise to him afterwards but I shouldn't need to do that, I shouldn't be taking it out on him in the first place.
The fact that I can see the point of having a bad mood and the other side of my life is so much better than that, I have no idea what I was just about to write, oh well, that's the way my head works sometimes.
There are times when I look at myself and think. I
That's it my self has switched off!!!
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